An open birthday letter to the strongest person i know

To the strongest person i know, as i write this letter i do not know where to start. There are too many things on my mind that i want to tell you. Words can not express my feelings for you. But i want to try to express this as best as i can.

Dear ibu, you have been through all of the problems that hit you.  You have been through all of the pains strongly.

I've growing up watching you. I've watched people hurt you, yet you never get revenge.

I've watched you cry, yet you never give up.

I saw you crying silently, do not know what i supposed to do. I just hope that everything was okay.

I've watched you fall, yet you get up again.

I've watched you in pain, yet you getting stronger.

When you are in pain, you always say that everything is okay, do not worry because there's God that can help you.

You have never complained about this life, about your problems, or about your pains. You know how to be a sincere and sabr person, and i learn a lot from you about this one. 

I know and love you since day one i was born. 

Thank you for showing me your love, 

Thank you for showing me your dedication,

Thank you for showing me how to be stronger, 

Thank you for never giving up, 

Thank you for everything you have done for me and family,

Thank you for being present in my life,

Thank you for being my mom, 

Thank you for being everything that i have ever needed in my life and for still being here with me. I have no idea what i would ever do without you in my life, i know that i would not be half the person that i am today if not for you.

I know i can't even pay back all the kindess that you have given for me, but at least i hope i can make you proud to have me as your child.

You are my number one and will always do.

Happy birthday, my dearest ibu. ❤️

Oh my dear friend

Oh my dear friend, i know you had a rough day. These days been so suck for you.  You cry, mentally emotionally physically tired. You lose appetite, even do not know what's going on with yourself, ah nah, you know the reason what's wrong with you actually, but you deny it, or maybe you have no strength to share it with someone else? 

My dear friend, if you need someone else to share your problems, your pain, or your sadness, come to me. I will give you my so-not- warm hug. I will not tell you that everything is okay because the reality is pain, i understand how you really feel, i do not know how to solve your problems, but.. please, do not be afraid, i will always be with you, all ears for your problems, and do not feel you are alone because i got your back, on your side.

I knew how it feels when you need someone on your rough day but no one care, when you cry all night but no one knows, no one knows your pain, your problems, your sadness. You keep all of them for yourself. It hurts.. Painful.. Lonely..

I know how it feels because i have felt that, i remember how i cried in those days. I do not know who can i tell my problems with.. ah no, i just needed someone who can be my side, no need to solve my problems but be there for me in my rough days.

Let's go back to you, once again, no need feel alone because i am here for you anything you need. I will help you as much as i can.  Remember that everyone makes mistake, nobody is perfect, so do you and me of course. So... it is okay for you to be not okay or show your pain, let everything that bother you go.

Breath... Inhale... Exhale...

I know you can pass all of these pains, problems, and sadness.

I know you will be a stronger person that you are ever be.

Do not let everything ruin your life.

And remember this one, you deserve all the loves and happiness.

Bogor, July 11th 2019

Written from the bottom of my heart,

Nadya.

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Kamis, 30 Mei 2019.
16:46
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